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During my time as a student at Nyack College, I participated in the Brooklyn Gospel Team. Each Friday night, a group of students would make the trip into New York City to work with a local church and bring the gospel message to people on the streets of Brooklyn. One Friday night driving home, I stared out the window of the van. As we passed numerous apartment buildings with their lights on, I heard the Lord say, There are lost people living there—will you let me use you to share hope with people? And I said, “Yes!” I wanted to be a willing servant.

That was 43 years ago, and I have served the Lord in ministry for all the many years since. It has not always looked like what I imagined, and my husband and I have been          called to some hard places, but I do not regret saying yes to the Lord.

The prophet Isaiah responded to the Lord as well. Isaiah 6:8 records the following statement, “Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, ‘Whom shall I send? And who will go for us? And I said, ‘Here am I. Send me!’” There was no hesitation on Isaiah’s part, even though God tells him that the message he will be bringing is not a pleasant one.

I often ask myself, “If I had known the cost of going where the Lord planned to send me, would I have said, ‘yes?’”—and I can honestly say I would. Even in the hard and discouraging times, I know that I am walking in the path God has laid out for me.

Isaiah asks the Lord, “How long?” and the Lord basically tells him, “Until the task is finished.” Most would fall away, but a remnant would remain, and in that remnant, there would be found a holy seed—a reference to the Messiah.

Sometimes in ministry, we can feel as if our message is falling on deaf ears, whether believers or non-believers. Yet, if God has called us and we have responded with “send me,” then we must trust that God is working in people’s hearts. Only one or two may respond, yet, that one person may be the one that God uses to bring in a large harvest. Don’t be discouraged with the results or the numbers. God sees the results and they are not ours to worry about. Our task is to remain faithful to the end.

Our “yes” to God may take us down some hard paths, but obedience to your call will be used by Him to further His Kingdom.

Rise Up Like Lazarus

It is impossible to live in power and purpose when we are living in our garments of death. Those
garments of death are saturated with the stench of sin and keep us captive in an old life. They
are not meant for us to wear. They were never meant for us to live in. God is telling us to take
off our garments of death.
A large stone sealed off the cave where Lazarus’ dead body lay. With great intention and
purpose, he had been in there for four long days. He had succumbed to a progressive illness
that quickly took his life. And now, Lazarus was gone.

All he had needed was a touch. And by this time in Jesus’ ministry, even the disciples could have
performed such a miracle. From afar, Jesus could have spoken healing into existence. After all,
he had already done that with the centurion—why not a repeat performance? God’s glory is a
beautiful and mysterious wonder, but it often comes by way of suffering.
Jesus is always on time. He is never early, and He is never late. He is intentional with His arrival,
knowing exactly what needs to get done and when. Four days late by our standards is right on
time through that Kingdom lens. Four days late offers the ultimate glory of Jesus to be seen and
experienced by all. What a scene that must have been.
“When he had said this, Jesus called in a loud voice, ‘Lazarus, come out!’ The dead man came
out, his hands and feet wrapped with strips of linen, and a cloth around his face. Jesus said to
them, ‘Take off the grave clothes and let him go’” (John 11:43-44).
It was time for Lazarus to rise up. Death had lost all power at the sound of Jesus’ voice. He
immediately commanded Lazarus to take off his grave clothes, for it was those very clothes that
tethered Lazarus to sickness and death. It was those very clothes that wreaked of decay. Jesus
had come to free him from all bondage. As Lazarus walked out of that dark cave and into the
bright light of life, everything had to be left behind, so he took off his garments of death and
walked toward Jesus.
Many of us are weighed down by the very things that have been nailed to the cross—somehow,
they have crept back into our soul. Once again, we find we have been taken captive. Maybe it is
our past that haunts us. Maybe a sin that just won’t die. Maybe it is a battle, a struggle so
intense that we seldom experience the light He called us to live in. Fear, doubt, anxiety, and
depression are smelly clothes that enslave, preventing us from the fullness of God. These
garments of bondage don’t belong to us—they have been nailed to the cross. These garments
are no longer ours to wear.

Dear friend, He has called you out of the grave. Leave your garments of death behind and rise
up, for you have been freed. Step away from the garments and move towards Christ. Rise up
like Lazarus and live!

Rise Up Like Esther

How do you handle stress in your life? Do you binge-watch TV? Are you a stress eater? Or do you stop, pray, and read the Word?

Esther was put in the unique position of queen. She was a humble and obedient woman, and though the Scriptures don’t go into it, I think she could have been a quiet and shy young woman—one who didn’t want to stand out to be noticed but knew deep down she was special. She knew her identity was in God and not man.

As we come into the story of Esther in chapter 4, she learns there’s a plot to kill the Jews. There’s a rule that you cannot walk in to talk to the king, but instead he must call you in. Failure to follow this rule can result in death. Mordecai wants Esther to help the Jews, but Esther cannot go into the king on her own. She is in a difficult and stressful situation. Take a moment and put yourself in her position—perhaps you are right now. Perhaps you are trying to do the right thing or speak up for yourself, but you feel trapped. There isn’t a “good answer”—there is either pain for you or pain for someone else. Which do you choose?

Esther chose God. I love what Esther says in verse 16, “Go, gather all the Jews to be found in Susa, and hold a fast on my behalf, and do not eat or drink for three days, night or day . . . then I will go to the King . . . if I perish, I perish” (Esther 4:16, ESV). She surrendered her life and her choices to God, but she didn’t do it alone—she asked for help. She asked for her community to pray and fast for her. Doing this showed her humility, as well as her submission to God—praying for a miracle that would save both the Jews and her life. There was no “easy way out.”

How will you handle stress moving forward? I pray that you would take a moment, breathe, and realize you are the daughter of the King. Perhaps God is calling you to gather your community to pray and fast for a situation that only God can handle. Know this dear sister, only He can and only He will.

No More Excuses

“I can’t.” In youth ministry and education, I hear this phrase a lot. “I can’t read because it’s hard,” “I can’t cut that out because my hand is too tired,” “I can’t write that essay because I’m too busy,” “I can’t pray out loud because I don’t know how,” “I can’t be real with my friends because they might reject me,” “I can’t tell my friends about Jesus because I don’t know enough yet,” “I can’t help with that ministry because I’m not old enough,” “I can’t . . . because . . .” What I have found is that this phrase stems from a lack of trust. A lack of trust in themselves and in the person giving them the task and telling them they are capable. It can be really easy to get frustrated, shake my head at them, and say, “Would you just try it and trust that I know what I am talking about?” Yet, how many times has God asked me to do something and I have said the same, “I can’t . . . because . . .”?

When God called Jeremiah to speak on His behalf to the people of Israel, Jeremiah’s immediate response was, “I can’t speak for you! I’m too young!” (Jer. 1:6, NLT). God had just told Jeremiah that He had purposefully and intentionally created Jeremiah for this task. God knew him in his mother’s womb and had set him apart to do this job, but Jeremiah’s response to God was to make excuses. Did Jeremiah think that God forgot how old he was? Did he think that God didn’t take his age and experiences into account? It can be easy to criticize Jeremiah, and yet, how many times have I done the same thing when God asked me to do something?

I love God’s response to the excuses, “Don’t say, ‘I’m too young,’ for you must go wherever I send you and say whatever I tell you. And don’t be afraid of the people, for I will be with you and I will protect you. I, the LORD, have spoken” (Jer. 1:7-8). God is firm and calls out Jeremiah’s excuses, but He pairs it with a promise and a reminder. God promises to be with him and protect him and because of that Jeremiah can walk forward without fear. He reminds Jeremiah that He is Lord; who better to trust than the one who intentionally created you? The reason I love this is because God answers the doubts in Jeremiah’s heart . . . his doubt in himself, but also in the one who gave him the task and is telling him he can do it.

God calls all of us to stop making excuses and to trust that He knows what He is doing. When He calls you to love your neighbor, He knows who your neighbor is and how difficult they can be. When He is calling us to share the Gospel with and pray for those in our spheres of influence, He knows it won’t go perfectly. When God calls you to rise up and lead, in whatever capacity that looks like in your life, He knows exactly who you are, and He created you intentionally for this purpose. God didn’t focus on Jeremiah’s qualifications or lack thereof; He focused on obedience and trust. If we focus on going and doing whatever it is God is calling us into, our supposed weaknesses (young, old, experienced, inexperienced, married, single, widowed, childless, army of kids and grandkids, immigrant, eighth generation American, educated, uneducated, etc.) may very well be a part of His design for what He is doing.

The youth pastor in me also has to ask, what if we didn’t just believe this about ourselves, but also about the next generation? What would our world, our churches, and our communities look like if we empowered and raised up the youth around us with the confidence that God can and will use them no matter their age? What if instead of saying, “Not yet,” we said, “Let me walk with you and help you discern God’s voice”? Or when they came to us with issues of injustice that are troubling them, we didn’t just say, “The world is a broken place,” and move on, but rather asked, “What might God be asking you to do?” I get excited about the potential Kingdom impact this would have! Every generation empowered and mobilized in service to God, believing in the purpose they were created for. How beautiful would that be?

So let us be women who stop making excuses for ourselves and others and become women who boldly walk forward saying, “We can because God knows us, and we trust Him.”